This is one of my journal pages that was included in LK Ludwig's latest book, True Vision. I was honored to be included. I never could have imagined that I'd have the courage to submit such an intimate piece and it would have been even crazier to think it would actually be chosen. But there it is. I was provided exactly what I wanted even though I was too afraid to even tell myself what it was.
Change seems to be my theme these days. The changing of the seasons, Tanner starting school has required a dramatic change in how I spend my evenings, I'm changing how my ideas about food and how our family will eat, I'm changing how I spend my money, and I seem to be in the middle of a change of work of some sort.
I've been searching for how to do the work I love and without planning it, I made arrangements to listen to the perfect person speak on exactly this topic. This weekend I decided I needed to get to church because work is so stressful and going to continue to be for quite some time.
The speaker week was Tama Kieves , a career coach and teacher. I didn't know she'd be there but she was exactly who I needed to hear. During her talk she said "If you're this succesful doing work you don't love, what could you do with work you do love". I felt like my world had tumbled upside down. I burst into tears. I couldn't catch my breath. It was a moment I hope to always remember.
It had never occurred to me that I could actually succeed wildly doing what I loved. I've always worried about how but I see now I couldn't have planned getting to this point in my life ten years ago. I didn't know how it was going to happen. I knew this was what I wanted, or at least what I thought I wanted. It's what I thought would give me the security I needed to do what I really wanted. Well, I got exactly, and I do mean exactly, what I envisioned for myself. Now I need to start visioning what my heart really wants. Never mind the how. Never mind the fear. It's time to step out on a little faith. I'm looking forward to it.